I decided that it might be a good time to give you a list of the most important things I want to accomplish in my life. Maybe some day I will go into more depth about it all.
I want to open my own restaurant.
I want to help teens who live a troubled life like I did to feel that they are safe and cared for.
I want to dance professionally.
I want to help other dancers who struggle with knee problems like me to achieve their dream of dancing professionally too.
I want to see the world.
"If the world is your oyster, you have the ability and the freedom to do anything or go anywhere. You're young and healthy and you've got no commitments, so the world is your oyster."
10 April 2013
When Opportunity Knocks... You Had Better Get The Door
I got sort of used to my normal, boring old life. I would get up, go to class, do my homework, see my guy and my friends occasionally, go to bed and then repeat.
This was my life and I was perfectly okay with living in the monotony I had created for myself for the last six months. But, as I always do, I started to get restless.
I started to want more. I needed adventure and spontaneity. I needed mystery...
About three weeks ago I went on the best vacation of my life. I met the most amazing people only because of the fact that I was forcibly disconnected from my cellphone and the internet for a week (for which I have my family to thank). Suddenly, I found myself trying to do nothing more than pull from this new friends wealth of knowledge that was greater than my own. I'd never met someone with such motivation to do all the things he had done so far in such a little time.
Spending time in this new setting and learning all the things I did, I started to notice a sort of attachment to it I was missing in my life. Seeing someone who wanted to just do anything and everything that came their way made me realize that the time is now. I should not keep putting off my desires and dreams in order to keep doing things to make my family happy with me. While their happiness is important, so is mine, and if I am not happy about something in my life then the time to change it is now.
So, now that the trip is over, I cannot help but keep thinking about all the amazing things we talked about. All the things he has done over the years, and all the things I intend to do in years to come. I decided that I was no longer going to sit around with my quiet life in my tiny room and do nothing worth mentioning anymore.
It is time for me to get out there and grab the bull by the horns...
I had been having trouble with my relationship before I left, but the tides had now changed completely. I spent so much time thinking about what to do, but it dawned on me about four days into my vacation that I am an entirely new person now, and I was not going to keep settling for someone who seemed perfectly okay with a life much like mine used to be.
I was not going to feel held back by anyone's lack of motivation.
I was going to get out there and throw myself at everything I wanted to do...
Full force and with no regrets... Just like my friend does.
No more fear of failure, because failure does not define me.
No more fear of judgement, because what people think of me is not always true.
This was my life and I was perfectly okay with living in the monotony I had created for myself for the last six months. But, as I always do, I started to get restless.
I started to want more. I needed adventure and spontaneity. I needed mystery...
About three weeks ago I went on the best vacation of my life. I met the most amazing people only because of the fact that I was forcibly disconnected from my cellphone and the internet for a week (for which I have my family to thank). Suddenly, I found myself trying to do nothing more than pull from this new friends wealth of knowledge that was greater than my own. I'd never met someone with such motivation to do all the things he had done so far in such a little time.
Spending time in this new setting and learning all the things I did, I started to notice a sort of attachment to it I was missing in my life. Seeing someone who wanted to just do anything and everything that came their way made me realize that the time is now. I should not keep putting off my desires and dreams in order to keep doing things to make my family happy with me. While their happiness is important, so is mine, and if I am not happy about something in my life then the time to change it is now.
So, now that the trip is over, I cannot help but keep thinking about all the amazing things we talked about. All the things he has done over the years, and all the things I intend to do in years to come. I decided that I was no longer going to sit around with my quiet life in my tiny room and do nothing worth mentioning anymore.
It is time for me to get out there and grab the bull by the horns...
I had been having trouble with my relationship before I left, but the tides had now changed completely. I spent so much time thinking about what to do, but it dawned on me about four days into my vacation that I am an entirely new person now, and I was not going to keep settling for someone who seemed perfectly okay with a life much like mine used to be.
I was not going to feel held back by anyone's lack of motivation.
I was going to get out there and throw myself at everything I wanted to do...
Full force and with no regrets... Just like my friend does.
No more fear of failure, because failure does not define me.
No more fear of judgement, because what people think of me is not always true.
Updates from the last year
I struggled pretty hard to find time to write and things to write about. My motivation sunk into a giant black hole of nothing-ness, but I have found it again. I know I've been gone for a long time, but I'm back rejuvenated and ready to go.
Within the last six months I have been focusing hard on what I want to do with my life and where I see myself in five years. While I haven't made much progress, other than deciding I want to do literally everything, I have discovered that I have an entrepreneur inside me who needs to be freed to do her bidding and her part to make this world a better, brighter place for the rest of the population. I hope I will keep up my promise to myself not to let anyone tell me who I am, what I am capable of, and where I belong in life. My career is my choice and I'm going to keep finding things to try until I'm doing what makes me happiest.
So I lost another guy or two along this road to finding myself and becoming a better me, but I think I know who I am and what I want to, and am supposed to, do with the rest of my life. I have no doubt that I might lose some more guys along the way, and this doesn't necessarily scare me anymore. It just means they weren't meant to join me on my road to glory.
More on my thoughts once the sun rises.
Yours truly, BNB
Within the last six months I have been focusing hard on what I want to do with my life and where I see myself in five years. While I haven't made much progress, other than deciding I want to do literally everything, I have discovered that I have an entrepreneur inside me who needs to be freed to do her bidding and her part to make this world a better, brighter place for the rest of the population. I hope I will keep up my promise to myself not to let anyone tell me who I am, what I am capable of, and where I belong in life. My career is my choice and I'm going to keep finding things to try until I'm doing what makes me happiest.
So I lost another guy or two along this road to finding myself and becoming a better me, but I think I know who I am and what I want to, and am supposed to, do with the rest of my life. I have no doubt that I might lose some more guys along the way, and this doesn't necessarily scare me anymore. It just means they weren't meant to join me on my road to glory.
More on my thoughts once the sun rises.
Yours truly, BNB
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