I Am Just A Big.Kid.

Anyone else keep getting this phrase from their parents lately? "If you want to be treated like a big kid, you have to start acting like one..."

I only see one flaw in the fact that they keep telling me this, they dislike the ways in which I decide to be a big kid. I commented on wanting to move out and live in my own apartment a few weeks ago, and she countered with a reminder that if I actually do that I will have to have a job and a car and be able to support myself and the rent to do so. As all big people do, I thought about the whole idea more and came to the conclusion that maybe I would ask someone to move in with me and split the rent. Only problem is... They will not agree with who I wanted to ask to move in with me. They would have more horrible things to say about that than about me staying at my boyfriend's house for the weekend to save him gas money... (It is also to spend the time with him.)

I decided, after acquiring a job for the school year and the summer, I would like to go on a trip just me and my boyfriend, to spend some time just the two of us (Without having to deal with school, parents, siblings, household responsibilities, or jobs) for a week over the first break we can afford. Turns out that requires both of us to work most likely MOST of the weekend, reserve as much of our money as possible, plan the trip ourselves, AND deal with my mother's flack as soon as she finds out we are going together. Not to mention, heaven save me if she gets the crazy idea in her mind we are sharing a room...

She wants me to grow up and make decisions that relate to my age, well I have news for her... NO SHE DOES NOT! If she did she would let me make these decisions, and she would help me work towards them not make me do it all on my own. Part of growing up is making these choices, yes, but part of it is also about learning how to get the resources to achieve them as well, right? Why is she not the one teaching me this, rather than me fumbling around in the dark looking for the metaphorical lighter to light the freaking candle so I can find what I am looking for.